"Where the hell's the cooley?"

Okay so. I made it.

I'm here, in the city.

I'm tired, unpacked and sleep deprived and I feel like I have a knife in my lower back because the car was so full I couldn't recline the seat and ugh.

Anyways, I'm busy and tired, I have a feeling I won't be able to update for a few days, but I'll be sure to recap accurately!

MMM Raisin Toast!

So, recapping last few days:

TUESDAY

I hitched into nelson at 2pm after saying a quick hi and bye to Suzan. Met Smash at Sidewinders and had a cup of coffee. We talked about relationships and drugs and alcohol and then recapped on some adventures we'd been on. She drove me to the hitching spot at about quarter to six. 

Now I wanted to make a note on some of the people I got rides with, because it was a very interesting day. 

1st Ride: Mr. Ainsworth, this was not his actual name, this is just where he dropped me off. He was an older man that kinda looked like there was a bunch of pressure on the back of his head, his eyes stuck out a little and his jaw too. His right hand was a little deformed and completely fingerless. Usually, this would bother me, but it was all right. When I first saw it, my thoughts were either electrical blast/explosion or fire damage. Not ten minutes later did he mention that he was an electrician >.>. He dropped me off in Ainsworth after telling me all about how being a carpenter would be a better idea than electrician. I promptly agreed.

2nd Ride: Mr. Nelson/Sociopath, I've definitely gotten a ride with him before, I remember because I though he was just uber pessimistic about the world, but apparently he just isn't putting up with ANY bullshit in the world, so he offends a lot of people and comes off as angry. He blames it on his 11th grade sociology teacher. 

3rd Ride (homeward): Ms. Balfour, a native lady from northern B.C. She was really cool, we talked about status and residential schools. She mentioned that her cousin owns a carpentry company and it's going under.

4th Ride (homeward): Mr. Kaslo, I swear to god I knew who this person was, but he didn't know me so whatever. We talked about Edmonton and Calgary and partying and work etc.

WEDNESDAY

I woke up fairly early to 'wake up call' a friend in the city. We talked for about an hour and then I ate food, and went back to sleep for an hour. Manon called me at 10, and I got ready and hitched up the lake. I washed windows and super cleaned out the stalls and re-bedded them. Then I got a ride over to the barn at about 4. Fiona was there and we got Spirit, Luke and River ready and saddled up. Jackie was going to come riding with us and so I had to ride bareback, which was fine. Jackie showed up and we headed out, we stopped at Jackie's horse's barn and brought her beautiful arab along with us. Jackie was really nervous, because she's a nervous person and so River started acting up a little. She ended up getting off near the end of the ride and just walking back. I enjoyed the ride. Spirit was a little angel.
Fiona and I got back to her house and watched the olympic women's two-man bobsleigh. Canada took Gold & Silver. We ate dinner and I was pretty tired by 8, so I went to bed.  

TODAYI got up really early and went over to Manon's to finish up the hours I owed her. Washed more windows and cleaned the stove and then did a quick job on the stalls again. She had some clients in from Kaslo and I got a ride back in with them. I called mom, who's made it to Jasper already! Now I have to do laundry and pack up all the little loose items I won't be needing for tomorrow or Sat. Then I need to go visit Tim and Harmony and the Twins. At this moment though, a hot bath and a nap seem pretty nice too.

The butters spreading thin.

I woke up this morning at 7 with a migraine that made me think I might have been hit by semi. I tried to get up but the knives in my temples held fast and I remember waking up at around ten, thinking that I should set my alarm for 11 because I knew I had to go into Nelson today. I went back to sleep until 12:15. Robin called me and announced that her and her mom would be there to pick me up at 12:45. I got up and ate cheerios with banana and strawberry chunks with maple syrup as sweetener. 

I brushed my hair and then got my stuff ready to go. My head was still aching pretty bad, but more in the left side, so I was squinting when I stumbled out into the bright sunny day and into the car. It had become manageable by the time we got to class. I finished up my last Bio assignment and just have the final report do clean up and send in. One math assignment to do, it's long and I have to do it alone because Robin's already done it.

When I got home, Marlene had cooked a small tenderloin roast and was just putting on apples and ginger to stew. I made yam fries and a sour cream with garlic dip, a fake aioli of sorts. It was delicious! The pork got kind of cool by the time we ate it though. My headache was gone by then.

Tomorrow I have to get up early finish my math assignment and my report and then at lunch I have to go see Harmony at the school and give her gingerbread. Then I need to mosey on downtown, get an inhaler refill and then go see Suzan. As soon as I'm done there I have to hitch out to Nelson and visit Smash as I failed to do that today. Then I need to come home and finish my math if I failed to do that in the morning. Wednesday I'm going up the lake and then Thursday I'm hitching back in and hopefully mom will be here before too late.

Marlene wants to have dinner with mom and I here, on Friday. Chicken and salad and probably potatoes. I need to get that money from Rein still and give it to mom, who's gotten herself caught up in payday loans. I'm kinda angry at her, I went with her to find a cheaper cell phone plan and we found one for $50 a month, and she goes and adds all these fucking retarded add ons and her bill now comes out to $150. Like really? That was pointless. I think she keeps on spending a bunch of her money and telling me that she's paying Dana rent, because she's told me that she paid for January, in like Dec, and then she tells me she's behind on February's rent, and I swear she's said she paid it like.. at least twice now. I know I shouldn't care because it's her money, but now that she's making decent money I hate to see her just throw it all away. I mean she's made enough to at least have some saved. Bah whatever.

On a side note, I wrote myself a three page letter. I'll post it up here when I have more time. It's late and I need to get up early and start my day off well rested. 

Edmonton: 5 days.
Mom: 3/4 days. 

Today was a good day.

The sun was shining and it was so nice out. I woke up before noon today and showered. Then I ate some breakfast and packed all my clothes up and finished sorting through the rest of my stuff. All my stuff is going to fit in the car for sure. Ashley came into town today but I totally forgot to call her and I fell asleep ugh. It's all good though because I made plans to meet up with her in Nelson tomorrow.

Watched more InuYasha, on episode 68.

I'm still a bit hesitant about this whole situation. I feel like I'm going to get stuck there. Or something terrible is going to happen and cause me to become sad or something. Maybe it's just because I've always had bad feelings towards the city and I can't picture myself being happy living there. Or maybe it's because that thing is happening, my perspective on people are warping again and changing. It's not a bad thing, it's just what happens when you learn more about certain people. 

Whatever. I'm not going to worry about it too much. That thing, where I wake up in the middle of the night yelling about staying alive and not wanting to die, that started happening again. It just fucks with my head so much. Oh well, once I'm settled and I have some sort of structure in my life, such as a job and a regular workout time and all that stuff, it'll stop.

Edmonton: 6 days.
Mom gets here: 4 days.

Inuyasha, episode 63.

Well. Yesterday was much more pleasant. Morgan had my phone, they tried to convince me that it was right where I had left it.

Whatever.

I woke up and got ready to go out to Balfour to pick up Aricia. Mished downtown and got the rest of the money that I owed Tim, went to see him and he was still pretty angry at me for blaming him for taking my phone. I left and wen to say a quick hi to Robin. Got a ride to Balfour and met up with Aricia. We stopped in the bakery and bought two giant cookies and then hitched to Kaslo.

We got back to my house and then ate some food and got ready to go downtown. We stopped in at Syd and Lisa's to see if they were home and Elaine ended up giving us a ride because Syd was babysitting and Lisa was up the lake. They both made it to the party eventually.

We got up to Harmony's and Robin, Steven, Kevin and Joe were there already. We went downstairs and I failed hard and spilled half a 26 of Tequila and most of the cranberry juice. >.> After that more people started showing up and the partying commenced. I never got too drunk but a few other people ended up crying and puking. It was a pretty good night all in all. 

I ended up walking home at 3:45 in the morning. I got home at twenty after 4 and Aricia appeared at around 6:30. We both slept until about 1 ish and then mished down to Harmony's to help finish with cleaning. I felt pretty good. I had chugged a bunch of water and a tylenol before I went to sleep and tequila doesn't give me a bad hangover anyways.  Aricia went home at about 5 and I stayed at Harmony's till about 6. Tim picked Holly up to drive her home and gave Robin and I rides too.

I watched more Inuyasha and ate a lot of food and I'm very very tired.

Sleeptime.

Edmonton: 6 days

Mom gets here: 4/5 days.

What a shitty fucking night.

Yesterday I hitched up the lake and rode my horse and it was amazing and beautiful and calming and I realized how much I don't want to ever give up horses. I also realized that I want a hobby farm with chickens and cows and horses and two dogs and barn kitties and a vegetable garden.

And then tonight I went to Morgans house.
I came home angry, phoneless and I have two cuts on my knuckles from punching the grill of a grater. I also have no trust in any of my 'friends' and I don't even want to go to my own going away party tomorrow.

I don't even know what to say right now.

I'm just angry.

Edmonton: 8 days.

The smell of burning flesh...

Is one that's not easy to forget. 

I got a wart burned off the bottom of my foot today. It was fucking weird. They numbed the area and then used this like battery powered wand with a wire on the end that got red hot. I didn't feel a thing, but I watched the doctor burn my skin, and it was smoking and shit. The smell  was awful, it's not like when you burn beef or something, it's entirely different. It's sickening, partially because your brain is like "WTF, that's my flesh being burnt." 

That's what I did today. Because I smoked weed last night with Robin, I slept until 12 today. Weed makes me soo sluggish. Also we ate a ridiculous amount of food. So, I missed my appt with Susan : / and I called and left a message. My foot is finally starting to hurt because the numbing stuff is pretty much all worn off and it bled through the bandage and my sock and I didn't realize until I pulled off my sock just to see if it had started bleeding or not. Then I found blood all over the floor in the kitchen, and on my blanket >.<; 

I did laundry today though and worked out and vacuumed. I was going to start sorting my pokemon cards but I realized that my problem before was that I didn't have enough card holder pages. So I'm going to wait until I get to Edmonton. Mom alerted me to the fact that we will be leaving on the morning of the 27th.

I hope my foot doesn't hurt to bad tomorrow, I was hoping to go up the lake and see Spirit and go have dinner with Manon. It's Sonja's birthday tomorrow so she was going to have a little party thing for her. I suppose I should just go regardless of how my foot is, I haven't been up the lake at all since I've been back. 

I started watching Full Metal Alchemist yesterday.

Edmonton: 11 days.

And it's not so bad, it's not so bad.

Blah blah blah....

I'm sort of neutral right now. I don't know what I feel today. Last night I cried about leaving my horse. I cried because I finally admitted to myself that I was in fact moving to the city just for people. I realized that those people possibly don't care about me half as much as I care about them. My concrete plan just turned into sand. It's held together by nothing really. I'm going to the counselor tomorrow and I'm going to see if we can't convince me that I'm going there because I want to. 

Anyways. 12 days is a long time for thoughts to form and become stronger and more realistic. 

Edmonton: 12 days.

Well, glad thats over.

I actually can't complain, my valentines day went exactly as I planned it. Quiet, warm and alone. Woke up at eleven, worked out and decided to slack off on my laundry again. I drank a whole lot of authentic chai spice tea, watched 30 + episodes of InuYasha and ate cookies, tarts and even banana cream pie. I turned my phone off and didn't go on facebook for most of the day. I ate pizza for lunch and had a wonderful chicken dinner, thanks to Marlene, while watching the Olympic men's mogul. W00t Canada.

My mom called but I missed it due to the phone being off, so I called her back on my way over to the twin's house to have a taste of Italian wine. Harmony, Devon and Dougie were there. I hung out there for about an hour then came home and continued on my InuYasha power watching escapade. Now it's 1 am and I think I might just mosey off to bed, I have Math and Bio tomorrow. Tuesday I have an appointment with Susan and then I might head up the lake to finally go see my horse. 

I can't believe how long it's been since I've seen her. I'm really relieved that Fiona is okay with this. I can't wait to pay her back some of the money I owe her. I feel like an irresponsible pile of douche for not having made more effort to see my animal that I claim to love so dearly. In fact, I think I just made myself uber depressed. I don't feel very deserving of such an amazing creature. Thank goodness they know humility and lack moral judgement. 

I love you. So much, and I'm sorry that I'm leaving you.

You've been the most amazing creature I've ever encountered.
You've been there for me, every single time, and I've let you down so much.
Thank you for forgiving me and accepting my faults.

Thank you for never passing judgment on me.

Thank you for helping me learn what it means to love and to have fun and be truly and purely happy.

I'm suddenly very very sad. 

Edmonton: 13 days.

So I tried

to download and post a new layout, but it obviously failed. So I'll try later.

Oh, and happy Valentines day...

Happy birthday to you.

Today is Tim's birthday, he's 19. I went out for dinner with him and his parents and some of thier close friends. It was really yummy, they had these valentines specials on for $35. Appetizer, scallop wrapped in cod(?) and a huge prawn on a potato pancake with basil and oil drizzle. There was a choice of beef sirloin, pork sirloin or duck with a black bean curry sauce for main dish. Then there was hazelnut, kahlua, or raspberry cheesecake for dessert. It was really yummy, I had the duck with curry sauce, snow peas, and wild rice. Was tasty!.

I've had a silly headache all day long though and it started to really get to me right after I ate. I don't know what caused it.

I woke up at noon and didn't get out of bed until 1 ish. I had lunch with Syd and Lisa and Dougie, we made panini's. Then I came home and tried to sleep my headache away.

I've decided to hold a 'sushi && purification' day on the first Sunday in March. I hope lots of people can come. I invited 31 people, including my brother, his girlfriend, my sister and my mom. I also invited some people who probably don't consider me a friend yet, but I know them in E-ville, so why not. Maybe some of them don't even like sushi.
We'll see.

Either way, I'm going to have sushi on Sunday, March 7th. I'm going to go have a lavender bath and see if I can't kick this headache before I go to sleep.

Edmonton: 15 days.

Methamphetamine manic.

So only recently have I realized how amazing most of the people in my life are. Really, really amazing and so fucking talented it blows my brains. The friends circle that I'll be entering when I land in Eville are all creative and talented. I'm so stoked on my whole life right now. I updated my Deviantart with a bunch of pictures. I had to take them off my Facebook first though so I hope the quality isn't too bad.

Vida
is most likely coming to B.C with my mom.

/STOKED.

Which means she'll be getting a ride back and I get to be with her for all that time. I miss her so bloody much it's ridiculous. You'd think I want to marry the girl.
....

Also, I sent the package to the peoples (Carys, Marissa and Tanya). That was exciting. I forgot to bring my taxes with me though so I have to wait until Monday to send those out. I've been so freaking happy all day, it's nice. For a change, I don't give a crap about anything that people have to say about me or what people think.
I'm just happy.

I need to be careful though, this is the kinda happy that throws you down if anything bad does happen. Also, don't take the title as anything for real. I am not on methamphetamine's, I just love that word.

Edmonton: 16 days.

I want this title to be as epic as this song.

Let's talk and we'll fill the air with imagery that lasts forever
So this is love that's a lovely thought
You have to care for it to keep it together
If you fall will you get up
You're stuck in a dream will you wake up
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold will you stay warm
You drift too far will you swim towards the shore
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
Let's sing and we'll fill the air with melodies that blend together
You speak so sweet with words so delicate
A glass i hope will never shatter
If you fall will you get up
You're stuck in a dream will you wake up
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold will you stay warm
You drift too far will you swim towards the shore
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it

So I finished packing up my entire life, minus my clothes and the stuff I'm using right now. It's all fit into about seven boxes and two suitcases.
That kinda makes me depressed in a way that I want to cry and throw up.
Yet, at the same time, I'm happy that it's finally done.

I vacuumed and kinda went through my laundry, but I'm going to wait to do my laundry because I'm lazy now xD.
Anywho. That's enough blogging for today.

Sick and Savvy.

So, Grad photo's were not bad at all. I don't know why I'm so negative about things lately. I think it's most likely related to the whole moving thing. I keep telling myself that I'm not stressed. I don't feel stressed, but maybe I'm thinking of anxious and depressed when I try and think about what being stressed feels like. I could be missing it altogether.

A few things have surfaced that I don't usually do. I've been really tired lately. I eat and crave sugary foods and drinks, and I've been slouching a lot again. I've also been very paranoid about man made things. Like vehicles and stuff. Wood stoves, like the one in my house, I'm freaked out anytime I hear anything crackle from that thing. I'm almost sure that the fire has escaped and the house is burning down. Anything that has the possibility of exploding, also freaks me out. Propane tanks, gasoline, aerosol cans etc.


Anywho, I finished my taxes, I just need to send them in now. It wasn't really that hard, probably because my t4 was pretty straight forward and I didn't have a lot to fill in.

Tonight, once I'm done talking with people via internet, I'm going to finish my room up, and then start my workout program. Haha. Not much of a program really. I just cut out some magazine pages that show different workout styles and stuff.

And I need to lay off the sugar.
Like really.
No more.

I don't really know why I changed my text position to centered. It's slightly more satisfying than being aligned to the left. I think I might go through all my blog posts and change them to centered.

Eville: 17 days

Grad photos.

I have grad photo's today, in an hour and 45, I don't have a hair straightener and I have that stupid scar on my arm so I have to wear a long sleeve shirt, which greatly limits my wardrobe to about 4 items of clothing. I still need to put on makeup.

Ugh.

Where is this taking me?

Pot cookies. Why am I eating pot cookies? I've been stoned these past three nights. I don't like it, I don't like being around people when I'm high, and so I've just been super hermit like lately. Yet I keep wanting to be this way. Maybe I feel like it's helping me with stress? Didn't Robin say I'd be a happier person if I was a stoner?

Today was...

Un-eventful.


Edmonton: 18 days.

I sprained my ankle, then you sprained my heart.

Gah, I can't believe I didn't post yesterday, that's so annoying, I hate missing things like that. Now, posting everyday isn't going to be as important. :/ It's ridiculous, because it's almost OCD, and I only get like that when I'm denying to myself that I'm stressed out.
Anyways.

Yesterday was Monday, I had an appt with the counselor at 10 am. She helped me do my taxes. I'll hopefully be getting them all back. That will help me pay of my horse boarding fee's. Then I went back home, at some lunch and then headed back downtown.
I got to Robins, and we waited for our ride, but it never came. I decided to hitchhike into town because I needed shampoo's and things for my life.

I got to Nelson about 2pm, picked up my contacts, stopped in at the candy store ^.^ and then headed down to the mall after picking up a dream journal. I got a hold of Tim, and he came to meet me. I finished up what I had to do there, buy shampoo, conditioner, razors and a birthday card. Then we headed back up to Baker street for some SUSHI! My bank decided to be an asshole and hold my money though, so Tim had to get my bill for me again :/... I fail. We headed home.

I got up to my place and was stunned and appalled to find the new facebook layout plastered all over my homepage. It's really ugly and shitty and all confusing and nonsense-like. It made me mad.

Devon and Robin came to my house at around 8, and we all went up to Harmony's and hung out. Robin had made cookies and we ate some of them. I decided to walk home at about 11 pm. That was kinda sketchy but I was on the phone with Marissa, one of my Edmonton friends, so if a cougar did attack me at least someone would know. Haha.

I kinda felt bad though because I woke her up x_x; I hate waking people up by calling them. It just seems rude somehow. And every time I just call, instead of texting first, that's what happens. I think it should just be general rule for me to text people before I call them. Everytime.

Anywho, I haven't done much today. I woke up at 11 am and just chilled in my bed, read some blogs and cried about facebook some more. My mom called and asked me what was up with the bank but I haven't done anything about it yet, I'll mish downtown later and go check it out.

Marissa is sending Tina home soon! I'm excited, I miss that not book. I'm eager to see what Mar and her friends did to Tina B.

V-day: I don't even care anymore.
Grad photo's: 3 days.
Edmonton: 19 days.

Hayley Dom Slacker.

Bah! Last night was a bit of a gong show. So many people were upset or depressed with life. It was all rubbing off on me and I hate that. Oh well.

Holly came into town and came over to my house, then Tim and Devon showed up and we started to drink vodka slimes. We headed over to Tim's house, sort of a rally point and then all walked down to Pat's. He wasn't there. So a big group of us were standing around trying to figure out wth to do with our sorry selves. I felt like I was in grade 9 again. It was really warm out, I wouldn't have minded someone starting a fire or something and just hanging out outside.

Holly and I went downtown to pick up the katimavik kids. Someone found Pat and so Nicola came down and picked up Rose and Alyssa while Holly, Katima-Tim and I all walked back to Pat's. Things were good. I was a little stressed out about life again.

Eventually I got into a better mood. The vodka and lime probably aided that a bit. It was a pretty good night all in all. Some dramatic shit went down just before we left. Tempers flew and angry words were tossed around. Holly and I got home around 4 am. We made burrito's and had grapefruit juice and more vodka. Then we went to sleep.

I was awoken by my roomate's son who dropped of the dog while he went out somewhere for the day. It was about 11:30. Tim called me. We got up and ate some food and then lazed around some more. Holly went home at about 2:30.

I'm a little bit worried about this whole Edmonton thing still. I know that if everything goes terribly wrong, I can come back here though. It's nice to know that. It's like a safety net that I would be glad to fall back on. I hope things work out in that bloody city. I have so many things I need to come to terms with regarding that place. There are so many places I want to visit, to reenact certain memories as an adult. Compare them with my childhood recollections.

I haven't been doing any schoolwork or anything lately. I've been slacking. Tomorrow I have an appt at 10 am with Susan, my counselor. She's going to help me do my taxes. Then I go into Nelson, get my last math assignment, and figure out my last biology assignment. I need to buy shampoo and razors and bubble bath tomorrow. Then I need to get my hair done for grad photo's :/ ugh.

V-day: 7 days.
Grad photo's: 4 days.
Edmonton: 20 days.

Composing Disposition

I went out with Tim last night. We went over to Pat's. Bunch of people were there. The katimavik kids, Nicola, Jayson and that crew. Tim gave me the rest of the peach vodka he had the other night. It was a pretty low key get together. We played 'fuck the dealer'.

I think it's a good idea for me to quite bringing my phone to parties with me. Drunk dialing is not 'ftw'. People get their drunken feelings hurt too easily.

Tim and I left Pat's place at around 2 am. I was pretty drunk. I wanted to walk home but decided to just stay the night at Tim's. I got up at 7 am with Tim, who had to go to work, and then he gave me a ride home. I slept until about 11.

I didn't really do much today. I'm going out to Pat's again tonight with Holly and Tim, and the Katima-peeps. I will not be drinking beer. I found out today that I'm allergic to something in it. I had one beer last night and I had a killer fucking headache all day.

V-day: 8 days.
Edmonton: 20 days.

Hey, Listen to me

You're nothing but a

'FOOL'

Sleep lust.

I stayed the night at Harmony's house last night. It was sort of spontaneous and on the spot. Tim was over visiting and he offered to drive me over to her house. I agreed because my roommate was gone for the night and I wasn't looking forward to staying in the house alone. Especially because I was not feeling %100 upbeat.

I didn't sleep most of the night. Things kept running through my head. Irrational fears and unreasonable anxieties. Wanting love, destitute lust. People flicked across my thoughts, so many of the new people I've met. I know my thoughts of them will change, my initial roots of judgment will take and my perspectives of these people will change.
I came home this morning at around nine. I willed myself to stay awake, but I quickly gave in and slept until 2.

Sleep was the only thing I wanted when I woke up. My head was groggy, my blankets were to warm and I was angry that I had woken up. Slowly I collected my thoughts, they became rational. I needed to get up and eat, start on the giant mess that is my room. So I did.

I have most of my life sorted out, regarding what boxes of personal items I'm taking with me and which I'm letting go.
Once I get everything sorted out and neatly stacked in the corner of my room, I'm going to start working out. Maybe do yoga or something to get some endorphins in my body.

"Working out gives you endorphins!
Endorphins
make you happy.
Happiness
makes you
fucking crazy, fucking crazy,
fucking crazy"

I miss that girl so much it's ridiculous. I wish she would just come home already. That would make me very happy.

V-day: 9 days.
Edmonton: 21 Days.

Unhappy thoughts.

So, today, I woke up at 8:40 am, and I laid in my bed and asked myself "Why should I get up? What do I need to do right now that's worth anything?" then I closed my curtains and forced myself back to sleep. I finally crawled out of bed at noon, stoked the fire and fed myself. I showered and then finished my math assignment.

I can feel this sort of dark cloud moving overhead. I'm keeping just ahead of it, but I can see it. I can feel it. It has the potential to ruin this all for me. I'm keeping just ahead of it right now. I'm tired of everything right now. I'm tired of people, words, food, parties. I'm tired of the cold and the dark and damp.

I think things are just starting to get at me a little. I'm a bit stressed out. I have a lot of things to do before I leave, and I've got so little time to do everything. I need to keep my chin up.

Everything will work out just fine.

V-Day: 10 days.
Edmonton: 22 days.

Over bearing mind.

TUESDAY
Made cheesecake and then went over to Tims and hung out for a bit. It was Cam's birthday so we went over there and drank a bit with a few people. Cam was sort of depressed and it kinda rubbed off on me. I got home at midnight and talked to Tim then went to sleep.

TODAY
Woke up early ish, ate breakfast and brought Harmony cheesecake at the school, but she had left to go home. I gave it to Holly and the boys. Then I went down to Selkirk for an aboriginal support thing. It was alright.

I had a bit of a spat with my brother today over something he said to one of my friends. It's all good now. I've been getting a little too stressed out lately and I kinda blew a fuse last night and wrote some shit on facebook, anyways it's all good now.

I wonder if I'm getting a little off topic talking about emotional things that don't have anything to with me moving to the city.

V-Day: 11 Days
Edmonton: 23 Days

Monday Mournings.

SATURDAY
So we moved. It didn't take very long. We started at 10 am and finished moving everything by 1. Marlene and I had lunch with her boyfriend and his son. That was nice. I had a quiet night unpacking stuff. Marlene's house is really nice, I have the bedroom downstairs. It's nice, I have a little more space. I started unpacking and then went to sleep around 11.

SUNDAY
Tim went out and then called me at 2 am. That was funny. I like receiving calls in the middle of the night. Makes me feel important. I started on my room again and then made a really yummy curry chicken dish. Marlene and I got all my stuff out of storage.Tim came and picked me up and we watched 'Trailer Park Boys - Countdown to liquor day'.

TODAY
Today I tried to get my internet hooked back up but they said it should be up tomorrow around noon. I was going to make cheesecake but then I had to go to nelson. I went to the school and saw Holly and Harmony, signed up for my grad photo's and then headed down to Robins. We went to Nelson, did math and then went out for mexican food at this little hole in the wall "El Taco" SO GOOD. Got home around 6, and then started going through more boxes.

I found whole bunch of journals and stuff from two years ago. We'll get into that later. I found a bunch of my film photography stuff too. That was nice. It's hard to get rid of a lot of shit. Things that people own, define who they are, and I'm letting so much of it go to save room for the car. It's hard to shed that skin.

Currently I am at Tim's, going to watch a movie and then go home to sort through more of my stuff. Tomorrow I need to go see my teacher about my transcript shit. The ministry of education fails me.

V-day: 14 days.
Edmonton: 26 days.